Hello. I will try to keep this short and to the point. I am homeless and living in the Arizona desert I live off what the desert has to offer s0 good equipment is important to me, but currently I been getting rid of my worn out equipment, and this also includes knives and a machete and a gun. Both my hand's have extensive damage, 3 fingers missing on my left hand, and 1 off my right, (I'm left handed) I would like to get an Esee knife, after watching countless reviews, however the problem I'm having is the knife handles "From what I can tell" From knife reviews from youtube, and other sources. Either they look too skinny but with plenty of height or they look too small, but rounded, that will fill my hand but not enough... IE the MH Knives. I would like a Esee knife that is about 8 inches. What I'm asking is does anyone have the same problem's or feel the same, I'm not really looking for a Fan boy's to answer, but this is an Esee sight, but I do need an honest opinion before I buy, if I can't use a peace of equipment then their is a chance I would go hungry or face other difficulties. And what would you suggest I use from the Esee brand? Im currently looking at other makes as well, but would like to buy an Esee knife. My budget is $600 for replacement knives, and a machete. Sorry I kept this long.